pixie blog

bigger noodle

2007-02-07T14:24:00.000Z

well here's the lil' noodle a bit bigger than before...

oops!

2007-01-19T09:33:00.000Z

...it's been a wee while hasn't it?......... been a bit busy.......things going on.....lots of head hiding in sand from all friends and family.....think we're coming out the other side now....

anyhoo....meet the noodle! we should be seeing him again on the 30th when he'll be 12 weeks, hopefully all will be well and he'll still be happy and healthy

x

2006-11-09T13:25:00.000Z

We get some rules to follow
That and this
These and those
No one knows

We get these pills to swallow
How they stick
In your throat
Taste like gold
Oh, what you do to me
No one knows

And I realize you're mine
Indeed a fool am i
And I realize you're mine
Indeed a fool am i
Ahh

I journey through the desert
Of the mind
With no hope I follow
I drift along the ocean
Dead lifeboats
In the sun
They come undone
Pleasently caving in
I come undone

And I realize you're mine
Indeed a fool am i
And I realize you're mine
Indeed a fool am i
Ahhh

Heaven smiles above me
What a gift here below
But no one knows
The gift that you give to me
No one knows

Not today.

2006-09-07T10:24:00.000Z

And I want to believe you, when you tell me that it’ll be ok.
Yeah I try to believe you. But I don’t.
When you say that’s it’s gonna be, it always turns out to be a different way.
I try to believe you. Not today.
Tomorrow that may change.
I don’t know how I feel. And I don’t know what to say. Tomorrow is a different day.
It’s always been up to you.
Let’s turn it around, it’s up to me.
I’m gonna do what I have to do.
Give me a little time. Leave me alone a little while. Not today.
I don’t know how I’ll feel tomorrow. And I don’t know what I’ll say.
Tomorrow is a different day. Tomorrow it may change.

De ja vu?

2006-09-06T08:07:00.000Z

Why is it when I'm pretty sure I'm pregnant again that Dave decideds he doesn't want a baby again. I'm thinking timing needs to be improved slightly.

Big huge hurrah for Janey for finally getting back to normal - well done hun, if I could make you a cake to celebrate and get it to you I would!

Bought a new car last night, all very sensible and middle-aged Avensis. Feels far too grown up for me.

And rather strangely seem to be reunited with my estranged brother. All very surreal talking to him again. Not sure about it yet. There were VERY good reasons why were estranged in the first place, can you just forgive and forget things and move on?

ooooooooooo BANG

2006-08-24T06:59:00.000Z

oh god oh god oh god HOW excited am I today?!?!?!?!

Firstly, Emma gets her 20wk scan so I get to see my niece/nephew for the first time.

Aaaaannnnnd my already born and now 16 years old niece gets her GCSE results!!!!!

can't....sit.....still......or......concentrate...........

Travesty

2006-08-23T07:49:00.000Z

I'm sure that the male population will be devastated, as I am, to learn that Hooters airline has gone bust. No pun intended.

ok ok ok

2006-08-22T10:40:00.000Z

right, am receiving nags for not updating in eons so here is a lovely if slightly dull post.

Been busy getting things ready for a Fyberlounge stall we're doing on Friday at Chepstow Hospital - our first one woooeeeee! So been making up kits and sorting things out. Made a bag from Fran's pattern Bella Flora oooooooo how much do we LOVE this bag!??!?!?! I muppeted it up slightly so it's a tad small but still lovely.

Gearing up for baby making season in September so eating and sleeping well like a good girl. Emma is now well and truly in the 'fat' club at the half-way mark and has her 20 week scan on Thursday. Can't wait to see a picture of the bubba. Quite scary to think I would have been only a few weeks behind......quite glad for the break actually!

A friend has finally ended an on/off relationship which has been far more hurtful than it should ever have been. Good for you. You know it's the right thing.

And Jamie has been allowed back in the country wooohoooo! Though is sadly remiss in sending promised update emails.............

Oh and I've made some fantastic new friends from the miscarriage support group. Hi Kaz, Shell, Janey, Morag and Lin. I don't know where I'd be without you. Here's hoping we have some good luck and stay together x

2006-07-16T10:06:00.000Z

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

aaah bollocks

2006-07-06T16:56:00.000Z

Well Dave and I have officially lost our baby - funny how you can miss something you never really had. Being in the hospital definitely made our minds up that when it does happen we're having a home birth! Never in the history of the world was a hospital more shitty. Crimean war hospitals look like luxury compared to this place. Not even the countless number of knocked up women in their hospital gowns smoking fags outside the entrance could distract you from the horror. God bless the NHS.

Stolen from Nic

2006-07-04T19:53:00.000Z

ok - so Nic, here goes... any visitors, lurkers or friends are also welcome to take part....

So cut and paste the questions and fill in the answers in the comments box. You know you want to.

01. Who are you?
02. Are we friends?
03. When and how did we meet?
04. Do/Did you have a crush on me?
05. Would you kiss me?
06. Describe me in one word.
07. What was your first impression?
08. Do you still think that way about me now?
09. What reminds you of me?
10. If you could give me anything what would it be?
11. How well do you know me?
12. When’s the last time you saw me?
13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn’t?
14. Are you going to put this on your blog/journal and see what I say about you?

bleugh

2006-06-28T07:09:00.000Z

You see, what you don't want when you're feeling nauseous is your dumb dog to bring you a rotting magpie carcass he's decided to chomp on and suddenly forget the three commands 'Give' 'Drop' and 'Leave'. It went something like this (I'm asuming here that Ron CAN talk and that I know what he would say);

C: Eeeeugh! Filthy animal, drop it! *retches*
R: No, it's mine.
C: Ron, give! *retch*
R: No, it's my carcass.
C: Ron LEAVE!!!!!!!! FOR GOD'S SAKE DROP, LEAVE, GIVE AAAARRRRRRRRGH *pukes while smacking Ron around the chops*
R: Jeeeez if you want it THAT badly...*drops carcass at my feet and bimbles off*
C: *puke* *puke* *puke*

(authors footnote: I do realise that with blog titles such as 'Piss' 'Shit' and 'Vomit' I do actually now qualify to replace Gilbert and George)

Shit

2006-06-26T08:13:00.000Z

Do you ever have one of those weeks when your life is inexplicably shit. Everything you touch turns to crap. And the one thing you really wanted, when you finally get it, actually you're not sure if you want it after all.

Oh and ladies, if your hubby decided that you could no longer speak to any of your male friends, because you apparently 'hero worship' them, would you oblige? Or would you stand your ground? After all it's their insecurity? You CHOSE to marry them, surely that tells them something?

Time will tell

2006-06-22T07:20:00.000Z

well.......it's been interesting......lots happened.....but too much to go into.........

So Gran goes in for her hip replacement today. Apparently the chances of her pulling through aren't particularly high, but she says she's happy whatever the outcome. Strange isn't it, being as happy to die as you are to live?

The chickens are enormous and quite scary. We need to put them in the garden this weekend, their screeching is getting a bit bloomin loud at night these days. Even though I am waking up at 4 each morning now - what the flippin heck is that all about?!?!?!?

Jamie's abandoning me for a promotion and more money. Disgraceful if you ask me ;-) Hope it goes well for you buddy, but I will miss you.

I think I've just sent an email to my boss that could potentially get me the sack. I basically told him, he didn't know what he was talking about and told him how things really are.......then said that it was only my humble opinion and I would of course do whatever he wanted me to do.........think it may not have been enough to save it though.......

sleep....

2006-06-12T06:46:00.000Z

Seem to have spent the entire weekend asleep after a cheeky little bout of food poisoning thanks to a barbecue at friends Friday nite. Thankfully my inner child is happy;

Your Inner Child Is Happy

You see life as simple, and simple is a very good thing. You're cheerful and upbeat, taking everything as it comes. And you decide not to worry, even when things look bad. You figure there's just so many great things to look forward to.

http://www.blogthings.com/howisyourinnerchildquiz/

Hubby's inner child is apparently terrified.........wonder what it was BEFORE he married me....

1973

2006-06-09T10:50:00.000Z

You Belong in 1973

If you scored...

1950 - 1959: You're fun loving, romantic, and more than a little innocent. See you at the drive in!

1960 - 1969: You are a free spirit with a huge heart. Love, peace, and happiness rule - oh, and drugs too.

1970 - 1979: Bold and brash, you take life by the horns. Whether you're partying or protesting, you give it your all!

1980 - 1989: Wild, over the top, and just a little bit cheesy. You're colorful at night - and successful during the day.

1990 - 1999: With you anything goes! You're grunge one day, ghetto fabulous the next. It's all good!

http://www.blogthings.com/whatyeardoyoubelonginquiz/

Eventful

2006-06-09T06:59:00.000Z

Well, yesterday was an eventful day. We were evacuated from work as an unexploded World War 2 bomb was found whilst renovating the shopping centre.

http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/england/bristol/5060770.stm

SO Dave and I abandoned the car and ran to leap on the nearest train (it HAD stopped, that sounded more dramatic than it actually was). Then getting home, my cycle buddy (for you men, thats a girl friend who has the same period dates as me) lands the bombshell that she's pretty sure she's up the duff. No fair.

No Title

2006-06-08T07:07:00.000Z

I think I've upset a friend. Which upsets me. There's a very fine line, don't you think, between saying the right thing and f*cking things up beyond belief? When is saying the right thing not the right thing to do? But still, thats me. I say what I think. Right or wrong. I don't believe in lying to my friends, even if the truth isn't what they wanted to hear from me. And people that become my friends should know to expect that from me. I don't think it's a failure or a fault. Just perhaps not the best method of keeping friends. I just hope he knows that I love him and can see why I had to tell him the truth.

You'll be fine. You'll get through this. And maybe then we can be friends again. x

Current Track: Meet Me On the Other Side

2006-06-07T09:47:00.000Z

Honey, now if I’m honest, I still don’t know what love is,
Another mirage folds into the haze of time recalled
Now the floodgates cannot hold, all my sorrow all my rage,
A tear drop falls on every page.
Meet me on the other side.

Maybe I ought to mention, it was never my intention,
To harm you or your kin.
Are you so scared to look within?
The ghosts are crawling on our skin.
We may race and we may run,
We’ll not undo what has been done.
Or change the moment when its gone.
I’ll see you on the other side.

I know it would be outrageous
To come on all courageous, and offer you my hand
To pull you up onto dry land,
When all I’ve got is sinking sand.
I’m sick of hearing my own lies.

Thank you kitty cat

2006-06-07T06:50:00.000Z

Thanks to that manky cat, I ripped up the hall carpet last night to discover a beautiful mosaic floor underneath! It's perfect too! So actually, I've decided having a hallway stinking of piss is not a bad thing....it leads to better things. Kind of a metaphor for life.

So the chick that shares a box with cripple-chick snuffed it last night. It looked exactly like one of those comedy rubber chickens, beak and toes pointed as far as possible in opposite directions and stiff as a board. I fished it out but the couldn't get to sleep for cripple-chick screaming its head off, pining for its dead mate. Managed to shut it up in the end by putting a teddy bear in the box with it. So it's going to grow up with its legs tied together with string and co-dependent on a teddy bear. May as well break its neck now, it may be kinder.

Can I also apologise for the wicked and frisky mood I was in yesterday, and to anyone who bore the brunt of it. I blame the hot weather.

Woohoo!!! / PISS!

2006-06-06T06:49:00.000Z

First the woohoo!!!!! For the first time since January hubby and I actually spent the night in the same bed wooooooooooooeeeeee!!!! Ok, for those of you that don't know the background, this isn't some weird sexual thing, hubby had an epileptic fit at the start of the year and ever since has been unable to sleep at night, instead having panic attacks and wandering the house aimlessly.....but....this morning......alarm goes off.......and then it stops......someone switched it off and it wasn't meeeeee!!!!!!! *skips, dances and frolics*

Ok, now the PISS! (Sorry to pinch your title Nic) some random scabby cat (though I'm sure I know which one, I'll bet it's the dumb ass one that's always out in the rain) has pissed somewhere in the vicinity of my front door. The noxious substance has now permeated the front door and hallway carpet stinking to high bloody heaven. NO amount of bleach/febreeze is shifting the bastard smell. Stanley knife at the weekend. (For the carpet, not the cat.) (althooooouuuuuugh.......)

All is calm...

2006-06-04T15:15:00.000Z

aand breeaaattthe.......

Had a bit of a wibbly week, fretting about this and that and generally being a moody moo. But all is now calm (bar the obligatory domestic in Ikea) , the demons have been locked away, the sun is shining and all is well with the world.

Tried to go blood doning today only to discover that I'm too light and have somehow misplaced a half a stone the last fortnight.......so in an effort to rediscover that half stone, I'm munching on my new found joy of peanut butter kit-kats. God damn genius combination. Maybe I should go and live with Jamie for a week and eat lots of fish and chips...what do you think J? Voddie and fish and chips? Hmmmm?

Right, I'm off to make a moopy rabbit for little Buster to try and cheer him up through the rampaging chicken pox, which Matt so generously tells me is 'bloody everywhere, even on his k*ob'......tad too much info Matt, but thanks for keping me up to date.

Tiny Tim

2006-06-01T07:05:00.000Z

...I think I've fixed the crippled chicken!

So we had one chick that couldn't stand up, its legs just kept doing the splits so it spent all its time laying on the floor with the other chicks standing on its head. It wasn't eating so I've been hand feeding it marmite....theeeeeen I hit on a genius idea yesterday of tying its legs together
:-D and it only blurrrrrrry works!! the little bugger has been standing up all on his own, walking around (albeit slightly gimpishly) and has started eating wooeee!!!!! It hasn't quite got the hang of scratching its face yet but hey....you have to walk before you can run don't you.

I brought up the baby conversation with hubby last night....and he cried with panic. I take it we're not ready yet then.

our first baby!

2006-05-26T07:37:00.000Z

woooeeeeeee!!!!! after giving up all hope yesterday I tried to start fishing the eggs out from under Ozzy and was met with an angry 'cheep' !!!!!! there was a baby under there!!!!!! the rest should hatch within 24 hours now :-D

Dave has got PMT or something at the moment....we're having so many 'ooooo someone's tired!' moments. (which by the way will diffuse or win ANY argument....try it next time....let the other person get wound up....pause for effect....then go .....'someone's tired!' smacks of frustration from your childhood when your parents answer to everything was that you were 'over tired'. There is NO ANSWER TO IT. If you protest or get more wound up, it just goes to show you are, in fact, tired. The only way out is to laugh.)

RIP?

2006-05-25T06:58:00.000Z

...I think the chicks are deeeeeeeeed. Tits, bugger and arse.

Still no sign of them and the shed is quite damp with this pants weather so I think the eggs have got damp and killed the chicks. *hurrumph* oh well, give it till Friday then it's a mad dash to the chicken farm to pick up some day old chicks.....I'm sure if we swap eggs for chicks fast enough Ozzy won't notice *whistles*....

Expectant Parents

2006-05-22T07:34:00.000Z

Dave and I have been pacing up and down all weekend, trying to hold out 5 mins before wandering down to the shed to see if any chicks have hatched. Ozzy (supermotherhen) kicked two eggs out yesterday morning which when cracked open revealed one unfertilised egg and one dead chick.....which is promising - if she's still sat on the others she must be able to feel them moving......

Romance is Dead?

2006-05-19T09:22:00.000Z

You see now THAT'S why I got married - it's the escalated respect and affection that comes with being unified in the eyes of God and the presence of loved ones ......yeah right.... so I'm walking towards my hubby after work and he's studying me quite carefully.....I get a glow expecting a 'Gee honey, you look pretty today'.....and what do I get?.......'F*ck me your tits are huge'. Romance? Dead? Not around here my friend.

Oh and BB first night - my top runners are Pete and Shahbaz. Love them.

Peace on Earth

2006-05-18T08:13:00.000Z

Grrrrr I'm full of evil flubber again...it's trying to kill me as I sleep.....

Well we have a new boiler and HOT WATER FROM THE HOT WATER TAP WOOOOOOOOOOOEEE! Thank the Lordy Lord. I was even polite to the Jehovah's Witness that came to the door, asking if I thought we'd ever find peace on earth. Buddy, I'm at peace with my hot water, that's pretty much it for me, have a nice life. Shallow I know, but I'm a woman easily pleased. Wallowed in a hot bath last night. Felt all squirmy, squiggly happy.

Soapbox

2006-05-16T14:22:00.000Z

WHY can't people just say what they damn well think??"?!?!?!?!?!?!?**? It would make life so much easier....if slightly less sugar coated...

hmmmmmm to take the test or not............

Current Track: Criminal - Fiona Apple

2006-05-12T07:12:00.000Z

I've been a bad, bad girl
I've been careless with a delicate man
And it's a sad, sad world
When a girl will break a boy just because she can
Don't you tell me to deny it, I've done wrong
and I want to suffer for my sins
Heaven help me for the way I am
Save me from these evil deeds
Before I get them done
I know tomorrow brings the consequence at hand
But I keep living this day like the next will never come
Oh help me, but don't tell me to deny it
I've got to cleanse myself of all these lies
'til I'm good enough for him
I've got a lot to lose
And I'm betting high, so I'm begging you
Let me know the way, before there's hell to pay
Give me room to lay the law and let me go
So what would an angel say? The devil wants to know
I need to be redeemed to the one I've sinned against
Because he's all I ever knew of love

Surprise!

2006-05-12T06:53:00.000Z

bugger bugger bugger - boiler went bang last night so no hot water....grrrrrrrrrrr......though technically as Dave was turning the tap on when it went bang, it's his fault, yet another thing to add to his list of destruction ;-)

For once in my life, I've surprised myself and I've been a good girl. I've amazed myself and been strong when I fully expected myself to just give right in - and not only that, I haven't done my usual trick of making a show of being good but leaving a little emergency exit open so I can change my mind at any time. All doors have been closed, all emergency exit signs have been de-illuminated (yes that IS a word), there's no changing my mind now. Maybe I'm actually growing up? Funny really when I'm giving a friend advice to be reckless at every given opportunity......maybe I can just live vicariously through him! He can be naughty for me ;-)

oh dear.....

2006-05-11T06:55:00.000Z

Well after 3 months of umm-ing and aah-ing, the DVLA have finally revoked Dave's licence on the grounds of a 'solitary seizure' he can reapply in 12months. Deary me we've had teddies thrown out of the pram in all directions.....

Current Track: Love Ridden - Fiona Apple

2006-05-10T10:52:00.000Z

Love ridden, I've looked at you
With the focus I gave to my birthday candles
I've wished on the lidded blue flames
Under your brow
And baby, I’ve wished for you
Nobody sees when you are lying in your bed
And I wanna crawl in with you
I want your warm, but it will only make
Me colder when it's over
So I can't tonight, baby
No, not ‘baby' anymore - if I need you
I'll just use your simple name
Only kisses on the cheek from now on
And in a little while, we'll only have to wave

New Woman....

2006-05-10T07:05:00.000Z

I am a new woman. I am useful. Last night I decided to tackle the Dyson that Dave brought with him that hoovers up as much dirt as an asthmatic mouse. I sat, pixie legged, on the kitchen floor with a screwdriver and took the thing apart. After de-clogging it and re-attaching the drive belt for the brush, I put it together again and the thing was like a beast unleashed - the carpet didn't know what had hit it!.........and then it sucked a sock from the back of the radiator and starting billowing smoke :-( hurrumph.

Getting dressed was frustrating this morning - I'm going though one of those stages where my tits are enormous and I have the double-bubble thing going on with my bra - so everything I put on made me look like a) a slut, or b) a frumpy housewife that can't buy a bra that fits.......double harrumph....so I have embraced slut-ness and worn red.

But on a brighter note Fran's back!!!! wwwwwwwwwoooooooooooooeeeeeee!!!!!!!!

Tagged by Fran...

2006-05-09T07:04:00.000Z

oooo tagged by Fran...

OK, here's what you do.....
1. Copy & paste.
2. Bold the ones you’ve read.
3. Add four recent reads to the end.
4. Tag!

The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown
The Catcher in the Rye - J.D. Salinger
The Hitchhiker’s Guide To The Galaxy - Douglas Adams
The Great Gatsby - F.Scott Fitzgerald
To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee
The Time Traveler’s Wife - Audrey Niffenegger
His Dark Materials - Philip Pullman
Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince (Harry Potter 6) - J.K. Rowling
Life of Pi - Yann Martel
Animal Farm: A Fairy Story - George Orwell
Catch-22 - Joseph Heller
The Hobbit - J. R. R. Tolkien
The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time - Mark Haddon
Lord of the Flies - William Golding
Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen
1984 - George Orwell
Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban (Book 3) - J.K. Rowling
One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden
Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire (Book 4) - J.K. Rowling
The Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseini
The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold
Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix (Harry Potter 5) - J.K. Rowling
Slaughterhouse 5 - Kurt Vonnegut
Angels and Demons - Dan Brown
Fight Club - Chuck Palahniuk
Harry Potter and the Philosopher’s Stone (Book 1) - J.K. Rowling
Neuromancer - William Gibson
Cryptonomicon - Neal Stephenson
The Secret History - Donna Tartt
A Clockwork Orange - Anthony Burgess
Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets (Book 2) - J.K. Rowling
Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte
Brave New World - Aldous Huxley
American Gods - Neil Gaiman
Ender’s Game (The Ender Saga) - Orson Scott Card
Snow Crash - Neal Stephenson
A Prayer for Owen Meany - John Irving
The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe - C.S. Lewis
Middlesex - Jeffrey Eugenides
Cloud Atlas - David Mitchell
The Lord of the Rings - J. R. R. Tolkien
Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte
Good Omens - Terry Pratchett, Neil Gaiman
Atonement - Ian McEwan
The Shadow Of The Wind - Carlos Ruiz
ZafonThe Old Man and the Sea - Ernest Hemingway
The Handmaid’s Tale - Margaret Atwood
The Bell Jar - Sylvia Plath
Dune - Frank Herbert
The Unbearable Lightness of Being - Milan Kundera
Hey Nostradamus! - Douglas Coupland
The Nature of Blood - Caryl Phillips
Children Playing Before a Statue of Hercules -Ed. David Sedaris
The Music of the Primes - Marcus du Sautoy
Fermat's Last Theorem - Simon Singh
The Lost Art of Keeping Secrets - Eva Rice
The Last Hope of Girls - Susie Boyt
The Magicians nephew -C S Lewis
The Mayor of Aln - James Rouke
Scarlet Feather - Maeve Binchy
Evening Class - Maeve Binchy
Street Dreams - Faye Kellerman
Last Chance Saloon - Marian Keyes
Mercy - Jodi Picoult
Devil's Food - Kerry Greenwood

Body Double - Tess Gerristen
Forgotten Voices of The Holocaust - Lyn Smith
Brand New Friend - Mike Gayle
Long Way Down - Nick Hornby (Current Read)

aaaaand I tag Jamie and Phil

Whatever turns you on...

2006-05-09T06:58:00.000Z

oooooh the funniest thing - we're still getting loads of post for the previous owners of the house and last night we received........a swingers club magazine! lol lol lol lol lol fanbloodytastic! You'd soooooo put a mail redirection on if you were getting post like that....but nevertheless it did provide Dave and I with some amusement for 5 mins - we scanned the members ads, hoping to find the ex-owners but sadly they weren't in this one.....it was highly educational though.....

blog ho

2006-05-05T12:41:00.000Z

...hmmmmm....my website's run out so I'm being a free blog ho at the moment and spreading myself around to see which I like best.....